Tuesday, August 28, 2012

Tired

It's been so so so so long since I have posted. 

I am trying to find who I truly am and be more in touch with life.

I have been vegetarian  for a week.  It's been a bit difficult.  I have been craving chicken nuggets.  I can actually tell a difference in my body though and the way I am responding to outside stimuli.  It's kinda amazing.  Some days are better than others.

This whole job situation has been really special.  We found out in July that there are going to be 40 job cuts in our building but we don't know who yet.  We were supposed to find out info by Aug./Sept. and they have officially pushed the information date to the end of Sept.  It's good b/c we are guaranteed pay until then but what about after.  It's caused a lot of tension in the workplace and it's getting pretty cut throat around here.  It's kinda nerve wrecking.  People are sending anonymous notes.  It's almost like the Hunger Games... I'm going to take up archery soon, just in case ;)

Other than that, therapy seems to be going well.  We are trying to build our relationship back up.  That is going to take a while to get better than what we were.  I'm still pretty hurt and down.  The therapist says I need to work on giving myself positive affirmations every day.  I not only have to say them, I have to believe them... that will be the hard part.

Back to the daily grind.