It's been a very trying time since I last posted. David and I are going through some very difficult stuff. I'm hurt and scared. He's betrayed me. My spirit is broken. The man I pledged my life to has not upheld his pledge to me. I trusted him with my heart and he proceeded to do what he wanted at the time.
We started therapy this week and have a lot to work through. We barely touched on his indiscretions and started from the beginning about how things have changed and the areas we aren't happy with. He was pretty impressed that we have looked pretty deep into our issues and are committed to fixing and working through our issues.
I am truly scared that we won't be able to survive this. I am scared that I am too broken. I love him with all my heart and soul and can't hate him. I was/am still extremely mad and hurt but if I am going to do my part to help fix us, I can't hold on to all that negativity.
David has done a lot of work over the past couple of weeks. He's almost like a new person. I mean he's still David but his less admirable traits seem to be fading or completely gone. I hope this has been the eye opening experience he needed to change for the better. I really hope it sticks. I am cautiously optimistic...
