A difficult day today

Today I attended the visitation of the mother of one of my co-workers.  He's 30 yrs. old and was working with his mom and fiancee on planning his upcoming wedding.  Then one day she woke up and had an aneurysm and was considered brain dead by the time she got to the hospital and was taken of life support later that day.  She passed the following day.   It's so bizarre how quickly things like this happen.  One second you are a-ok and then next you are saying hello to Jesus.  Death has been very present in the past 6 months.  I think it has made the ever present lesson of living life to it's fullest very clear.  You just never know what will happen with each moment you are given.

A rough weekend

I had a doctor appt with my amazing holistic doctor on friday morning and got the results of my delayed food allergy and food sensitivity test.  It was a lot to take in.  I should have known though given my medical history.  I didn't seem to have any outward symptoms that's why I had assumed I had magically avoided the food allergies... I thought God felt bad and said "Hey Jess, I will let you have a pass on this one".  Not so much though.  I am officially allergic to shrimp and egg whites.  I am pretty sensitive to lobster and corn.  I also have sensitivities to dairy products but that's not as bad as the others.  For now I am trying to avoid certain foods and see where that gets me.  I recently did another test that will tell how my intestines are functioning.  From the results of the food allergy test the dr. thinks I have leaky gut syndrome.  It's where there's a hole or perforation in my small intestines and some of the food that isn't completely digested is leaking into my system and my body is trying to attack... hence the immense amount of sensitivites (esp. to veggies, which shouldn't be happening).  It was a lot of infomation to take in this weekend and I have had a few breakdowns but ultimately it's good to have the info.  I've been doing things to my body without even realizing it and it's been damaging.  Now that I know, I can actively work NOT to eat those things that cause inflammation.  It's just going to be a difficult process.  But nothing worthwhile ever comes easy, right?

We officially only have one residence now!!  It's amazing.  We did what we could to finish up the apartment and decided not to have someone come in to clean the carpets b/c it wouldn't be worth it.  There was too much damage so we are going to be sent a bill.  That's going to be a bit rough but hopefully we will be able to work with the complex on a payment plan of some sort.  We're truly hoping so anyway :)

Alright, back to work for now.  Lunch break is about over.

Need to get better at this

So I've been working with my chiropractor and my massage therapist doing this technique called Craniosacral therapy.  It's really interesting and seems to be helping.  It is a method that helps your body simmer down a bit and tune into what it really needs.  I have certain areas of my body that are more jacked up than others but my body can't get a chance to fix those areas if it's always consumed with stuff like fighting dust mites and dander and molds and pollen.  My body is a busy busy bee fighting all of these things that normal people can fight.  It's tiring, let me tell you.  So that's something new I am pursuing to see if it'll help.

Saturday was the 10K training series.  6.2 miles is a long way to run.  I am proud to say I finished :)  My time wasn't as good as before but hey, I wasn't sitting on the couch and I was huffing and puffing to get my butt across that finish line.  David and Lloyd were the first two of our group to finish. Mel was next, then Natalie, then myself.  It was definitely a challenging experience and I know for a fact that the mini is going to be super hard.  It was around mile 5 that my muscles wanted to give out.  I actually looked at Natalie and said WTF are we doing?"  The mini is actually more that double what we ran on saturday so there's a lot of training that need to be done in the mean time.  The 15K is in about a month and that's 9.3 miles so we shall see how that goes.  My knee is really aggrivated but I have an appt. on thursday with the chiro :)  This doesn't seem to be the best sport for my body anymore (since I'm no longer a pre-pubescent high schooler) but it's on my bucket list so I want to be able to cross it off.  I'm actually running more now in one session that I ever have before in my life.  In high school I was a sprinter so the longest I did was a mile.  THAT seemed like a long distance at that time... little did I know, it gets much scarier than that! ;)

David and I are moved into the house and it's beautiful :)  We still have to finish up some items at the apartment.  We need to paint and clean.  We sent away our fish last night.  I cried.  Leo and Sticky were good fish.  The tank was just a lot of upkeep.  They seemed like they were happy and just swam away but it still doesn't help the feeling like we were just giving up on them.  I know, I know, they are fish but they depended on us.  We took them in and took care of them.  I hope they are well.

I have been really really weak, sore, achy... I can't seem to get the right words for how I feel but worn down is the general sensation.  It could be stress, it could be the race, it could be moving, who knows?  All I know is I am pooped and need to rest.  Maybe tonight after work I can curl up with a book and just relax.